Sunday, January 16, 2011
12:33 AM
I'm really tired now... I dont know what my parents want from me... Am i really that lousy? Am I really that imcompetent? I feel like a magnet in a pile of iron fillings; everything is just coming to me a one time, and i i cant take it anymore. My father is like the big bad wolf to me right now, and i am the balloon; and he just keeps huffing puffing till i explodes. Today my mother said that i was selfish because I didn't even want to take sometime to go pay respect to my grandfather... You know what? It's because whenever i go there i will only be reminded once again that he is no longer here.... I rather keep myself busy with my work and stay at home to have some time to relax and calm myself down. I am really stressed. My father keeps telling me to fold my clothes, wash my clothes, pack my room, do this do that. But the problem is: I DONT EVEN HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO COMPLETE MY HOMEWORK. I RATHER LEAVE MY CLOTHES IN THE BASKET THAN TO GET A DETENTION. But guess he just dont get it. To him housework is more important. But the irony is that his table is equally messy. I know that my parents might read this, but i can't care much right now. I really need to type this out since there's no one i can talk to... I am just a lonely person, that no one seems to be bothered about. If i don't type this out, I'm afraid i might just go crazy. I serious. I might go mad. I'm not sure if i've got depression or not, cause the pen knife looks kinda tempting this few days to my. It looks like it should just land on my wrist. But Im not that stupid to do that kind of thing. I promised myself to take care of my parents no matter what. But i don't know if i am capable enough for them or not. Do i live up to their expectations? I really dont know. Now a days, laughing in school seems kinda tiring already... I don;t know how much longer can I manage all this. I'm typing this out and not telling them straight to my parents because I dont want to knock on the board, who knows how would they react. maybe i get chased out of the house? Maybe they'll slap me? Maybe they'll just tell me straight that I'm the lousiest son in this world? I don't know. But i don't hate them. I am always trying very hard to meet their needs. I'm a perfectionist, a little mistake can cause me to hate myself the whole day. so please, i beg you daddy, stop shooting more things to me for now. i really need some time to catch up to everything before meeting your ever so high expectations. You hardly praise me. but i dont mind. i dont need your praise. i just need you to stop. Just not that even after all this I still love you all, but I'll hate myself more for not being good enough.
Monday, December 13, 2010
6:22 AM
It's been a long long long time since posted something.
Well the last 2 weeks was Supercalifragilisticexpialidociously busy, there was the co camp-cum-concert. Though there was like numerous amount of hiccups here and there, we still managed to pull it off. Thnx too the help of graduating seniors who came back and lend us a hand. :) We were all tired due to the pathetic amount of sleeping hours but it was fun.
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look at tyx ,doesnt she look like naruto? HAHA epic ttm!!!
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Recently, I'm like hooked onto 2NE1's Can't Nobody, Far east movement's Like a G6 and B2ST's Soom. They're tune gets me real HIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.
Poppin bottles in the ice, like a blizzard~
When we drink we do it right gettin slizzard~
Sippin sizzurp in my ride, like Three 6~
Now I'm feelin so fly like a G6~
Uploading images once my film is processed :D c u soon!~
Thursday, November 18, 2010
4:56 AM
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| I FINALLY GOT MY HOLGA 135BC <3 |
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ok so today was quite awesome cuz i kept cooking. LOL.
Here's what i cooked:
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| My Breaktfast: Ham, Scrambled eggs, and milk . |
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| My Lunch plus dinner( i ate them together cuz i had no appetite for lunch, that's why i ate sooo much LOL.) |
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| Broiled Red Grouper in Japanese soy sauce, with black pepper and italian herbs. mmmm yum yum |
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| Silky tofu with mince meat, with a little bit of Chili. |
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| Plain Porridge <3 | | |
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Ok Those are really cooked by ME ok... no joke. seriously.
xD
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Sunday, November 14, 2010
4:38 AM
When was the last time i sat down and colored a random picture...
guess it is impossible for me now... i am tooooooo busy!
1 More week, and i will be off to Indonesia.... Not sure to be happy about it or not. Haiz. Let's just hope that it would be a fun and memorable trip. :)
Here's the Holga 135 TIM. Gonna get it next year for as my bdae present :> cant wait. i really love the camera's functions, and dun you think it looks so darn adorable?
Word of the day:
UMBRAGE
–noun
1. offense; annoyance; displeasure: to feel umbrage at a social snub; to give umbrage to someone; to take umbrage at someone's rudeness.
2. the slightest indication or vaguest feeling of suspicion, doubt, hostility, or the like.
3. leaves that afford shade, as the foliage of trees.
4. shade or shadows, as cast by trees.
5. a shadowy appearance or semblance of something.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
4:54 AM
asdOk. got lots of pictures for you guys!!!!
Today, i went out with Toh PeiSan, Samantha and Nigel~~
First we went to somerset 313. Then the most epic thing happened. We didn't know where was Cathay Orchard. So we walked blindly towards Plaza Singapura, then we realised that "eh? not right leh... that one is The Cathay. is not the correct one wad.." So we walked all the way back and we saw the cathay that we wanted to go... =.= ( we walked the direct opposite direction. ) So we went to purchase our tickets for MEGAMIND 3D :>
The movie was..ok. Not very good, but it was still entertaining for me.
However, yours truly got a bad head-ache after watching it ):
I can't even walk straight HAHA.
Then we went back to Somerset 313 for lunch
The atmosphere is not bad :)
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| My set which costed me $10.80 |
I ate like ice-cream and a strawberry short-cake. oops. Gain weight ler...
First we went to this shop called :
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| Nigel's ice cream |
Next to this shop:
My Strawberry Shortcake :)
Samantha's Ice-Cream :)
DON'T THEY LOOK DELICIOUS? WELL THEY ARE!!!! =D
The rest are just photos of some christmas trees and shops i saw
I REALLY WANT ONE OF THESE ):
I SAW THE MUTTONS HAHAHAH!
I wanted to buy one of the bag, but too ex...
That's all for today :D
Next outing: PRAWNING! can't wait
Word of the day:
AUSTERE
1. 2severe in manner or appearance; uncompromising; strict; forbidding: an austere teacher.
2. rigorously self-disciplined and severely moral; ascetic; abstinent: the austere quality of life in the convent.
3. grave; sober; solemn; serious: an austere manner.
4. without excess, luxury, or ease; simple; limited; severe: an austere life.
5.severely simple; without ornament: austere writing.
6. lacking softness; hard: an austere bed of straw.
7. rough to the taste; sour or harsh in flavor.
Monday, November 8, 2010
7:25 AM
Today was HILARIOUS TTM.
First of all we watched a documentary on Facist Japan, and we found out that there was this prince named Chichibu, and we basically found it so amusing that we burst into laughter ( however we meant no disrespect :O )
Secondly, (during recess) me, seewan, cynthia and pamelin were talking about some stuff and I Seewan told me that JANEE WAS A PREFECT. LOL. UNBELIEVABLE RIGHT.... Anyways, not bad ah Janee.
Then I had lunch with Tan Kampong Girl (LOL), nigel and zhong guo wawa at McDonalds and I made a huge discovery. You know the pepper packet? We don't have to tear it!!! We just have to break it O.O . you can call me stupid, but i really didn't know that we can just break the packet and the pepper will just come out leh!!!
Ok, I am very extremely tired, exhausted, bushed, drained and so it is time to lie on my soft and cozy bed~~
Oh and the word of the day: Facetious
-not meant to be taken seriously or literally: afacetious remark. - lacking serious intent; concerned with something nonessential, amusing, or frivolous: a facetious person.
